I’ve always hated September because every single year, something bad happens to me or a loved one. It’s not an exaggeration but my dad had a stroke on the month of September six years ago and died on a September too, last year.
Do I want to tell you what happened to me the past Septembers? No. There’s no point in reliving them because they’re too painful. Just those two things about my dad. And think 9-11 Bombing, Milenyo, and Ondoy happened on September.
But this year, it’s different. It almost started bad, quite giving me a scare but God immediately made everything all right. So I decided to embrace this month with joy and gladness. After all, unfortunate things happening to my life always lead to better promises. My God is that GOOOOOD!
So no more singing, “Wake me up when September ends…”
As my friend Joni said the phrase is “laos na”. At least in my life. No longer will I dread September because my God is BIGGER.
I tell myself: Fear is the enemy’s way to capturing power and steering you away from victory. You don’t need to be feeling this way every September, every time you see a person who has given you only bad memories, or every situation that calls you to just lose hope in God.
Matthew 6:34 is a good reminder:
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. ” The Message (MSG)
So far, my September has been very good–blessed. I am learning to simply let go of things and the people that I know won’t do me good. It’s not that I’m giving up, I’m only trying to choose only those that are beneficial to me, my family, and my faith. I never imagined it would be possible but God’s grace again, enables me.
Nothing super grand or life changing has happened yet. Most of the time we’re at home and we only go out during weekends. Boring for some but I’m just happy and content being with my husband and son.
My only problem now is how to stop shopping online. Hahaha! (Biglang ganun?) My justification is that it’s Dad’s 1st Year Anniversary and I NEED something to make me smile more. I think it’s my husband’s turn to say “Wake me up when September ends”. By then, he won’t have to get up, and open the gate to receive the packages, and see all the “trash” for me. :))