I am all for embracing your body shape and size but getting really big is dangerous. Believe me, I’ve been on the heavy side, gaining 60 lbs. during my pregnancy, and it was bad. I blame the idea of “sige kain ka lang, minsan lang may freedom kumain nang marami“. Only after one month of confirming I was pregnant, I already gained 10 lbs. Tsk. I know. It was horrible.

When Noah came out, he only weighed 7 lbs and 8 ounces. I really thought he would be a big baby…bigger and heavier at around 9 or 10 lbs. What was I thinking? I was just fat. I gained a lot. A week after his birth, I lost 10 lbs. And the remaining 40 lbs.? It took me more than 3 years to lose them all. Such is life. (I hate you fat genes.)

I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Thank God! No longer overweight, just right for my height (I’m 5’7″) but still 10 lbs. above my pre-wedding weight. I was 10 pounds lighter five years ago. To achieve that slimmer body, it would take me months of really hard work and money. (Oo, money talaga kasi mahal magpapayat.)

It’s been months since I stopped going to the doctor but I have maintained my weight. I didn’t  gain during the holidays but did when my family was visiting from Bangkok. I gained some too when Josh went on a business trip for three weeks. You see, I eat when I’m stressed and lonely. Not good.

I’m turning 30 this year and it’s only now that I’m feeling that I’m getting old. I get tired easily. Maybe because I don’t have much activities that when I do move, I get exhausted. Proud to say and because of God’s grace, we’ve maintained our healthy diet. We move more. We drink a lot of green tea and water. We eat junk food (i.e. burger, fries, etc.) maybe at least once a month. We lack junk food in our house (poor Noah). My husband works out. I don’t but cleaning the house and washing the dishes can be considered as “work out”, right?. Haha.

(Just don’t ask about our sleeping habits, okay?)

If you’re confident, you may not be afraid to get fat. That’s alright. Big can be beautiful. I’m still a big girl– will always be because of my height and body structure. All I’m saying is, don’t make “Big is Beautiful” an excuse to overeat and not watch your weight.

I also understand that there are people who can’t really lose weight (thyroid disease) or are sick that’s why they are big but please do take care of your health.