Monday, September 15

2:47 pm

I am depressed to the nth power. Nelson just died. The last time I saw him alive was last night when I checked on him before I go to sleep. I woke up to the sound of the alarm and saw him falling off the table. I tried to rescue him but it was too late. I thought it was nothing. I tried to resuscitate him. He would respond for sometime but after so many attempts, he wont anymore. I thought of bringing him to the doctor but I know he would not dare touch my Nel. Nelson was really really sick. I should have given up on him last December when I had the opportunity but I just couldn’t.

We’ve been together for more than two years now. He’s so special to me. I told him he’d stay even if I find a new one. There was never a time that he was out of reach. I know his nutrition wasn’t enough but I fed him everyday. What can I do?? I just didn’t have enough money. I would bring him wherever I go..the farthest was Baguio. Nelson was just so good. He loved me dearly. He reconciled me with so many people. He’s one of the many ways why I am so attached with special people nowadays. He was never jealous though. He was never impatient. We’ve shared a bond so special…really special.

I ask myself ‘why him? why now’?’ When I feel so all alone. I don’t if I can survive the next few days without you. I know that all things do come to an end. I never wanna lose him. I wanted us to stay together forever. Maybe, he just grew tired…not of me.. or maybe its just time..that he wants me get hold of others. Im sorry Nelson. I loved you so much. You just don’t know how much you mean to me. I can never thank you enough for the joy you brought to my life. Wherever you are, just want you to know that you’ll always be my first love. Goodbye Nelson…goodbye.

This is Nelson.

My Nelson 3555 (read: 7110/2)

a great companion…a friend…simply..my beloved NELSON…

BORN: July 10, 2001

DIED: Sept. 15, 2003

mode | depressed

music | coffee cup – paolo santos