Tuesday, May 31

9:24 am
sunday

I feel so alone even when I know I’m in a place where joy is always present. It must be the hormones again. It must be the weather. It must be my body’s temperature. Or maybe it’s just my forgetful mind telling me to drown into nothingness and false solitude.

The enemy lurks. You know when he’s hitting on you. Attacking the one called ‘warrior’. I feel when he’s near. I try to show him in ways unimaginable and unfathomable by mere mortal.

I see them. I look at the people who seem lost and empty with sympathy. A lot like—me. Sometimes. But the answer to all these lies in knowing that I’ve been called once and forever into a wonderful kingdom.

Yes. I’ve been, I am, and forever I will be.

i should be getting on that plane. bummer. i hate this feeling so much. i know i should be giving up. but man, this really sucks. i hate. boohoo.

i’m starting to hate the people responsible for this. but yeah, dont worry. this too shall pass. i can’t stay mad at them for so long. and because of what’s happening, i more than want to buy the things i’ve been wanting to buy just so to make me happy.

i just dont get it.

now, every word pierces through heart. i feel so lonely. this is weird.

no amount of encouragement and explanation will make me understand. nevah.

i just hope it’s saturday already. sigh…

15Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, 16making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. 17Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord’s will is. 18Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. 19Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, 20always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. 21Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

Thursday, May 19

i am terribly disappointed. probably, a little bit angry…the last time i felt this way was when my first official website was copied by a friend. and now…im not sure yet…well….oh well…have to wait for tom…have to clarify some things first…

Wednesday, May 18

sundae cone ..tsalap! by the way, its 1:35 am..hehe…im hungry…cant wait for stripe to pick me up for our “lunch” date…lunch date in the morning…ha!

I AM SEETHING WITH ANGER.

i don’t understand why some people have to make pakialam somebody else’s files and folders.

ay 03

Harvest Time

Clockwise : Joshua “Etoy” Hurgo, 5 ; Francis Coronado, 2 mos; Nel Patrick “Neicky”, 2;
Nav and Etoy playing, Angelica “Chocolate” de Leon, 2 mos; Neicky and Juju;
Juliana Antonette “Juju” Hurgo, 1.7; Juju and Nav;
Center : Nathanael “NAV” Bunsoy-Visca

There has been a great harvest of babies in our clan. If it isn’t my youngest tita,
my cousins would be giving birth or their wives getting pregnant.

Angel – Niece. Just last Sunday, Angelica(the baby yawning at the bottom left) was baptized.
My mom calls her Chocolate. Yep, as in Chocolate the comedianne.
She’s not that dark , reddish actually. Hehe.

Etoy – Cousin. My bf’s tukayo. That’s why i always tell him ‘I love you, Joshua’. Teehee.

Juju – Etoy’s younger sister. This little angel is my cousin and goddaughter. Very pretty.
I just noticed that she’s acts a lil tomboyish. She’s not that pagirl
unlike the other girl babies I know. Brusko ika nga.

Francis – the baby is based in Canada together with his parents. His dad is younger than me
so I was shocked when I found out he’s gonna have a baby. So soon.
The father was just a little boy when he left the country and now he’s a dad. Darn.
He was named Francis because he has the same birthday as our Lolo Kiko.

Neicky – oh this cute little pig. Just the other day, i found him at my cousin’s place
eating pancit canton. He won’t stop. Maaan, walang tigil talaga sa lamon.
Yep, he doesn’t eat. He does only know lamon. Hehe. My cousin told me it’s actually the
boy’s second plate. Meaning, he already consumed 1 plastic of lucky me plus that one
plate he was eating.  Give him anything and he’d gladly take ’em. Takaw!

Nav – the Bunsoy-Visca’s first baby. I love this boy so much. He’s my very smart Nephew.
He can say and do a lot of things now. Very talented. You’ll be amazed by how he can sing and dance.
Sumusunod sa galaw talaga. He’s also fond of instruments. I know he’ll be a great musician someday .
Having great singers for his parents, the boy is musically inclined.
He knows how to strum the guitar and play the drums….nasa timing.
He’ll be my future kids’ kuya. Hehe.

So when’s the next baby coming out? And whose baby?
Hopefully , my sister’s. I want another pamangkin. Haha!

i’m going back to school next year to obtain a master’s degree. but i have yet to decide which course to take. gawd. i planned on enroling this coming school year but i still haven’t put much thought on it. im still weighing my options. doing a personal SWOT analysis. hehe. i don’t wanna enrol naman just for the sake of enroling and waste my money. next year. i will. promise.